The First Time I Heard God’s Vocie!

I wake up daily to misery.  I can laugh, and I can seem to have a good time but inside I am shattered in millions of pieces, and there is no repairing it.  The thoughts of being born into this world so everyone can be happy have crossed my mind too many times.  I have contemplated ending my life over the years, but I am a coward when it came close to doing it.  This time, I am not afraid anymore.  It must be done, and it will.

I called a friend and we decided to have lunch.  He had no idea that it would be the last day he would see me alive.  I thought of telling him but decided not to.  He would just stop me.